``I realized that I was somewhat of an ideal of the children and this was very comforting to me,'' Porter wrote in 1973.The 18-page letter was introduced yesterday by prosecutors in Taunton Superior Court, where a judge will decide whether the 69-year-old Porter will stand trial to determine if he is sexually dangerous. Porter pleaded guilty in 1993 to molesting 28 children and his prison sentence is up.
Church officials had asked Porter to leave the priesthood in 1970, but he ``vigorously fought that,'' said Dr. Carol Feldman, who said Porter had an ``available pool of children'' he didn't want to lose. Connolly, however, suspended Porter from all priestly duties the same year.A Boston College graduate, Porter finally agreed to leave the priesthood in 1973. In his letter, Porter said Bishop Connolly sent him home from St. Mary's until the ``scandal of this affair died down.''
Bishop Connolly gave Porter ``another chance,'' assigning him to Sacred Heart Parish in Fall River (Mass), where Porter said he ``again fell into the same situation that plagued'' him in North Attleboro.
Porter wrote that he got a job at a Minnesota bank in 1971 and began a ``new way of life.''Saying he was ashamed, Porter said he had used the priesthood to ``foster my sickness.''
``I have not run into my previous difficulty of wrong relations with youth of the same sex even though I realize I will always have the inclination present,'' he wrote.Porter's pedophilia spans from 1960 to at least 1987, authorities said. Two psychologists testified that Porter is likely to offend again.